Me dijiste que ya no me quieres

y hace semanas que no escucho un te amo

ya lo sabía, sabía que ya no me quieres.

Mi corazón ya no sufre

hoy todo es verdad

hoy mi alma, mi cabeza y mis sentimientos concuerdan.

Yo, yo te amo

pero no puedo compartir mi vida contigo

por obvias razones.

Ve libre por tu vida de soltero

ve libre sin esas sorpresas que ahogué

que tengo atoradas aquí en la garganta

aquí en mi alma

Mi corazón estuvo hecho nudos.

¿Qué importa?

Aposté, jugué y hoy la vida me cobra

yo sé lo que estoy pagando

tonta.... TONTA pensaste que no?

siempre se paga y hoy se paga.

SoLe

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Me quede con:

Dos obras tuyas

Un corazón incompleto

Muchos sueños inconclusos

Esperanzas con poquita fé

La paz que te pedí

Un posible embarazo

Tu sabor en mis labios

Mis manos que ya no te tocan

Mis brazos vacíos

Mi cuerpo sin ti

Un vació en mi cama

Dos playeras de uniforme…

Una playera de tu equipo de fut favorito

Una navaja

Sin planes para vacaciones

Tres pares de zapatos

Pudo ser peor? me pregunto. Pero sigo sintiéndote cerquita, no preguntes porque; seguiré viniéndote que es lo único que me queda hasta que vengas o hasta que la desesperanza me alcance, por mientras aquí te seguiré teniendo en mi corazón.

SoLe

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I was somebody that I used to know.

I used to be a layer, I wasn’t aware I believed lay is a normal thig just because 
everybody use to do it.  I’m not sure if was my idea to stop it,
I didn’t make a decision, I was push, I don't kwon why 
I remember an strange person bothering, 
asking, pushing, that’s not decide by myself, I knew that he was right, 
I can not believe he knows me and he wants me to improve myself.

I allow to go, let it be, he told me that I was a great woman, 
but I was the middle of myself, because I has not being show 
my greatness, yes I’m great but I wasn’t.

I remember that I used to lay because I didn’t  understand that 

I was a beauty and simple person, it was the most difficult step on my way.

I liked show my self; smug, vain, important, mysterious, desirable,

unattainable and the sexiest person that you would know.

I understand that I was hurting my people and all around them, they loved me,
they want me, but they were afraid, hesitating about me, because they were sure
that I was a layer, hesitating if believe or not on my words, those wasn’t
words, my worse were coming to be a fake.

Imagine to your most lovely person, may mom,

husband, girlfriend hesitating, afraid, scare about if believe on your words,

aware to your actions , or deciding not to belive in order to not get hurt and

if you said a true, they will enjoy it, but that was a happy moment, not a

happy life for them. Asking to themselves if not to believe in you was wrong,

deciding to believe, making and effort on their feelings to get a big risk.

They absolutely love you even having the
knowledge about your situation, but that’s not easy, is that a real love? Would
it be possible that they’re wrong? May they don’t decide to be your family… may
they not aware about your trouble, may they don’t care, may they’re using you 
saying that they belive in you, but they are not doing it, may they’re good
persons and don’t imagine or believe that someone can be a layer, may they said
oh, it was a mistake "a wind is not a winter".

I believed that I was the smartest person

around, no one can identify my lie, I insist and waste time on maintain my

stories, adding… thinking… remembering all I said, how to match them… exciting!

I can deny the exiting, I was there assuming that the only person who knows the

true was me.

Now….. it’s not important what happened, we
should take care about what is coming on… Go ahead!! don’t afraid, take the
best risk of your life if you’re ready to do it, not before, not later.

Live is now, I has being decide who I used to

be, that’s not enough, go!!! Go to fly, go to be free, go to fly to the

liberty, go to offer the happiness around me, offer to all of you peace,

happiness, love. Go to be the double that I used to be, know 

I’m  not the best of me, I’m the double best of me in a person.

Once I decide to be true, I was confuse, but I
was not conscientious about the result of the experiment but I have to do it,
when I was confronted about my lies I start to see that not one person knows, a
lot of people knew… weird but true, they still near to me, good you send all of
them to be with me I’m going to give them my best, just because I’m the best.

SoLe

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Nuestros besos... no son más que un encuentro furtivo, en el que nuestros labios se derraman y dejan de existir.

SoLe

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Hoy te haz ido, hoy he visto brillar tus ojos al verme, pero también hoy vi tu mirar triste y dudoso.

Ese mirar fue escalofriante, estabas y querías ausentarte, buscabas respuestas al verme, me veías y repasabas mi rostro dudando, temeroso y pasivo. 

No sé donde me dueles...

No sé ni siquiera si me dueles...

Es como cuando te va a dar hambre; no tienes hambre, pero sabes que no pasarás mucho tiempo para que la tengas.

Escribo y te suspiro, extraño lo no sé que, pero estoy segura que te extraño cuando mi entrecejo no deja de estar fruncido.

Enojada? No, es solo que veo venir el hambre y no me da porque tengo una fé chiquita al creer que es un mal sueño o grandota al no creer que te haz ido.

La garganta se me cierra al tener este pensamiento porque tal vez sea verdad, y todo ese amor que nos juramos y todo ese sueño compartido, no sé si murió, no sé siquiera si existió.

Yo siempre diciéndote... no tengo nada que pensar, sé que hacer... y tu siempre respondiendo rápido y arrepintiéndote después o diciéndome que no estas seguro.

Amor... el mío. El mío en el que sigo suspirando, en el que la garganta se me cierra para no gritar tu nombre o decirte que te amo.

SoLe

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